Why can't everyone just be Happy?!?

I just wish people would understand what I want and how I feel. When I try to open up, they make me feel that what I have to say is not important and will just try and blow me off, but when they need someone to talk to, who's the first person they call, that's right me! I have pushed so many of my own problems to the back of my mind because I do not want to burden anyone and I have gotten to the point where if I am not able to release some of my feelings and unresolved issues, that I just may have a mental breakdown.......Lately, because of one special person, I have little by little been able to vent. I know I can count on her to listen to my every word and that she really cares. By the end of our conversations, I usually feel at peace. This is something and someone that I have needed for so long and I couldnt be happier. But why is it that others are not happy for me? Why are they jealous of my relationship with my friend? If they would treat people the way I treat people, then maybe they would have special bond with someone they say they care about. Dont try to bring me down because I wont let you, I am finally begininng to feel that I am worth something and I refuse to let anyone take that away from me.........So sit up and Listen.........I am HAPPY and you should be happy for me!!!!!!!

Back to work today, after a long weekend! It's hard enough for me to get back into the swing of things, can you imagine how it is for 36 3 and 4 year old's; not cool!! It should be a very fun week, we will be teaching them about transportation; always a fun week. Especially when they get to drive their school made cars and drive to the "Drive-In" to get there lunch. It is so much fun working with these children, even though some day's can be a little challenging; but over all it gives me a great thrill knowing that I am part of the foundation for their academic success. It makes all the hard work worth it! Life....It is Grand!!

Between a rock and a Hard place!!

Just when you things are great, all hell breaks loose, not cool!! How much can a person put up with and how many apologizes can you hear. Is this acceptable? Do we just deal? Life is too short to sweat it, but my heart is telling me something different......Time will tell!!

Family and Friends

I am very fortunate for the family I have. I have a wonderful husband who takes great care of his "Clan" and also has enough love for me, to allow my mother to live with us. I have Four beautiful daughters, who are the light of my life. They have truly made me what I am today. Each have their own personalities, talents and interests; individually unique. I love that they are always wanting to try new things and better themselves. My family means the world to me.

My friends are equally important. Being an only child for the past almost 21 years, has always made me yearn for that sibling bond. I was fortuante to create such a bond while in college, but then after a while that person was taken away from me; and my heart broke. Now nearly 18 years later, we have found each other; and it's like we were never a part. Although we are hundred of miles apart; that sisterly bond is still there and stronger than ever. Having her back in my life has filled the whole in my heart that I have had for so long.

It's funny how things work out, and I could die tomorrow and be a very happy woman; well maybe after June!! Life is Grand!!